Ryan and Rain

I found out yesterday that my cousin, Ryan, died in a motorcycle accident Tuesday night. He was in his early twenties and was newly married. My uncle (who is Ryan's grandfather) had a brother who just died in a car accident a month ago. What a blow for this family. They are very solid in their faith. In fact, Ryan's mother made a comment yesterday that the Lord "is still good." She definitely has a peace that only comes from the Lord. Nobody can say something like that within 24 hours of their child's death unless the Lord is giving them strength. However, this is still so devastating. Please pray for my family right now. My mom is flying from Texas to Florida to go to the funeral.

Death is such a weird thing for us humans. Ryan is in heaven. We don't mourn for his sake but for ours. It's so difficult for us to wrap our minds around death and heaven and such.

All day yesterday I was rather down. It simply seems so senseless for Ryan to die. As I sat on my hammock in the strangely warm weather contemplating this, it began to rain. Instead of running inside to avoid getting wet, I stayed right where I was and let the rain come down on me. It really felt good. I realized that there were a lot of things that I don't quite understand about the Lord. Rain is one of them. As I sat there feeling the rain on my skin, I just knew that the Lord is in control. I was seeing a picture of how He controls the whole earth. Even when the wind and rain strengthened, the Lord was commanding it. What a mighty God! How can I think that I can understand everything about Him?